Stuck in a rut? A what? A rut.*
** “We missed wine night last night. What time do you have to babysit tonight?”
“5:30. But wine hour goes from 5-6”
“Well, we’ll be done shopping by 4:30 you can come right in and go to wine hour at 5”
“And then drive and babysit??”
Even though this is solely for my purposes, to amuse myself and as a way to make me write, I still feel like I need to be a people pleaser and write something profound (read: shit) for people to read and comment on. Though today I have nothing. I’m tired. I’ve done a lot this morning (run, shower, walk to work, coffee-that’s a lot before 9am) and this week I’m “flying solo”. My buffers – the people I rely on during the day, to keep me sane and remind me how luck I am – are both on tropical getaways. One of which, being a coworker, means that I get to do her job. I had to try not to throw up on the way to work this morning due to nervousness and had to continually remind myself that there are thousands that would love to be in my shoes (yeah, I’m the shit. Whatever.).
My weekend was also uneventful, my mom and babysitting and that about covers it.
Jesus Christ, I’m even bored writing this (and really fucking tired too). Now that I’ve bored you all as well-not my intentions, but inevitable-I do sincerely apologize.
I wonder if I’m the only one though. Who gets bored with their life and sick of waiting for things (good or bad) to happen; I’m in a rut.
I shall pose this question to you: do you get bored with your life? What do you do to cure the boredom?
*ok, there's this stupid thing, that goes "do you wanna buy a duck, a what? a duck", stuck in my head, hence the title. Make fun if you'd like. I understand.
**a convo with the madre.