Use Your Words
When Karen asked whether or not those with blogs and/or personal websites felt like we ‘wield any power’ by virtue of what is written on our sites; I responded that I didn’t felt like I had any power and that what little ability I may have in connecting with people, was because I write about a ferociously unstable period of time that pretty much everyone goes through. Other than that though, I pretty much say whatever I’m thinking at the time being, only slightly bordering on completely obscene or TMI.
The thing is that although I would give my left arm to run and win a public office, I can’t speak publicly or to anyone for that matter. The thoughts in my brain, never come across coherently and I end up sounding like I took a line of coke beforehand. It’s that bad. Though yesterday, I made a futile attempt at expressing my feelings via email and instant messenger and I came off not sounding like a crack head, but more like a bitch who proclaimed that she hated everyone and their brother. Which of course wasn’t my intention, especially towards two people that I absolutely adore, but there it was. I used my written words to make one of my best friends cry. Go me. Thankfully that situation settled itself out; but left me really questioning my ability to express myself through the written word. I mean if I can’t write anything out and I can’t speak without ‘himming’ and ‘hawing’ then what use am I?
Nevertheless, when I’m having these introspective moments, I realize that I do have some sort of power, both good and bad. Yes, at times it comes off as a complete crapload of randomness and other times you see that yes, thankfully, I have a point (like right now). I received a comment yesterday from someone who recently opened a BofA account and was wondering where in my entries I proclaimed BofA’s eternal damnation due to complete suckage. I smiled; because if my words have the power to destroy the BofA monopoly; then indeed my words do wield some pretty awesome power. Here I am, saving America from shitty banks, one customer at a time.